A Bug's Life

Merry Xmas

2008-12-24T17:18:00.003+08:00

Weather: Rainy and Cool

Feeling: Enthusiastic about the holidays

Ho ho ho... its prezzie time, although I only have one prezzie thus far.

Anw, we should never reduce Christmas to the mere “exchanging of gifts” and to keep in mind that it is about the blessed remembrance of the birth of Jesus. It is the day to mark peace, which the world certainly needed after the recent Mumbai incident.

I wish you all a very blessed and Merry Christmas and may you and your families be worthy recipients of the child Jesus' greatest blessings. O come all ye faithful!

A trip to the land of the raising sun

2008-12-22T23:52:00.005+08:00

It was a 10 days honeymoon to Japan (10 Dec - 19 Dec), visiting Tokyo and Osaka.

As expected, the weather was cold, but bearable, registering a minima of zero degrees celsius and a high of 14 degrees celsius. I was armed with only a warm jacket in hand for this trip and 4 layers of clothing was my operating norm.

There was many "first" in this trip. A very obvious "first" would be me deviating from my usual travel methods; instead of "free & easy", i hopped onto a guided tour. The main consideration was not because of the language deficiency that i would be facing, but rather the lack of time to plan a trip. To my pleasant surprise, i was thankful that i was on a guided tour.

The tour guide, Miky, of vietnam origin was fabulous! Not only did he speak fluent mandarin, he also, at many occasions, explained to the group, the various culture and traditions of the Japanese. (do you know why the Japanese always uses a try whenever they are having a meal?why are their food always slightly saltish? and why they finish everything on their plates?) That certainly allowed us to better appreciate the little gestures by the Japanese. When we observed other tour guides and their working attitude, we were glad that we had Miky.

Some other "first" in this trip includes my first encounter with snow! you can call me a "mountain turtle", even tough I feel that I have travel much in my life.

Finally, another obvious "first" is that my traveling companion is my wife, instead of a frenz or a gf. =p Thank you dear for this wonderful experience.

One of my personal favorite: A view of Fuji on the bullet train to Tokyo.

An Unfulfilled Stomache

2008-05-27T22:14:00.003+08:00

I was in Mindef this morning to do some coordination work and met Bernard while i was in the carpark. Surprisingly, he Jio me for lunch, which I readily agreed.

Was quite hungry by that time as I didn't had breakfast this morning and wanted to eat food of higher carbohydrates content, but to my dismay, they are going to eat porridge. **sigh**

Lunch was porridge with egg, fishcake, ikan belis, peanuts and salted vege. There was no meat and it cost 6 per per head. damn ex...

Amazingly, there was no dinner at home too when I got home. Mum and Dad was not around and I was too tired to go out to buy dinner. So guess what; Its plain meggie mee for dinner.

Both lunch and dinner were unfulfilling.

I ill-treated my stomach... need to sayang him tml

Feeling Lonely

2008-05-24T18:32:00.003+08:00

It's a Saturday and I'm bored at home. My only motivation for the day is to attend a wedding tonight.

I was thinking hard of the things that I could do at home (work, work and more work) and that kinna irks me, cos i don't seem to have a life. damn...

PQ was out training with her "team" for the competition. Something that I would do if I was still bowling competitively. However, I've moved on cos I know I simply cannot afford the time to train... and bowling certainly needs training.

To add salt to the wound, the TV shows across all channels sucks today and I even tried playing games on my XBOX to kill time.

Zz.zzzz..

Still Waiting For It

2008-05-22T20:24:00.003+08:00

My samsung phone is getting crappy.

I received a sms from Philip this afternnon and when I opened my mailbox folder to read the message, it turned out that the msg was from PQ instead and was dated 18/01/06!!! Amazing rite...

Dunno whats wrong with this lousy phone and I had to askPhilip to resend the sms as it was nowhere to be found in my mailbox.

Can my E61 (non camera version) comes quickly please...

No Longer Bonded

2008-05-20T22:32:00.004+08:00

Yeah....

I completed my bond and can seek new employment...

Anyone willing to hire me??... hehe.. I'm rather good at PowerPoint and Open Office.. so making presentation is not a problem for me. haha...

Beside that, I'm good at documentation, following rules and protocols and works orderly according to timeline given. Lastly, I'm good at catering for contingency.

If my resume is good enough, kindly hire me!!! haha...

Kinna Fustrating

2008-05-20T21:50:00.003+08:00

Its fustrating when:

1) When you set out to buy 2 things over the weekend only to realise that the first shop is nowhere to be found in the building and the second shop isn't open on a Sunday.

2) When the renovation contractor made some fundamental errors that will take great pain to rectify.

3) You selected 5 choices of wall paper, but none of them is available. What a waste of time.

Transformation of a Man

2008-05-18T12:06:00.005+08:00

I had dinner with Ben yesterday at Serangoon G when he posed this question which I had a hard time answering.

"Do you think your partner has influenced you in a certain way and vice versa". This question was asked in the context of food preferences whereby Ben told us that he has since moved to eating boiled chicken versa roasted chicken after meeting XY and since then onwards, he only eats boiled chicken to suit XY.

I paused for a while and looked at PQ in the face to think through if we have ever changed our likings since we got together. There were many bubbles forming in my head to find an answer.

Frankly, I dont have an answer at that point in time, as our eating habits have not changed since getting together. For example, I still prefer boiled chicken rice whereas PQ loves roasted chicken rice and we have never tried to influence each other to try to accept what you like! The way two of us works is that we have came to an agreement to "disagree" on issues that we cant resolve and move on. Thereis no point trying to convince each other of your preference (and it applies not just to food). If PQ wants to eat roast chicken while I prefer the other, we will just go about and order 2 separate plates.

And it is not necessary a bad thing to look at it. Firstly, there is less disagreement per se, and secondly, you are who you are and why do you have to change if that is not what you like.

anz

Loooonnnggg Weekeeeendddd....

2008-05-18T11:55:00.003+08:00

Its a long weekend, yet I'm at home at working. Sad life, but that's my schedule as NDP gets into the final preparation phase.

Also realised that there isn't any public holiday in the month on June and July... OMG! Holiday drought... Also realised that my big Day is only 6 months away and there are still lots of issues to work on. I don't even know if I have sufficient time to prepare for it since I'm going for an extended course starting Aug. In essence, my "plate" is full...

Anw, here is what I intend to do today:

1) Go tailor a suit later for the big Day!
2) Get a pair of matching shoe.

Dunno how much that is going to cost me. Time to stress my bank account again... =(

anz

Reno update

2008-05-14T23:15:00.005+08:00

Reno is progressing real slow, to an extent that I felt I could have done it much faster myself. Its been 10 weeks since it started and I think Miko needs another 3 weeks to complete it.

Not that I'm renovating it to become a palace, but I think she is too slack.. sigh... but she offer the best value for money given the materials she used and the workmanship.. well.. it just reinforced the believe that "when u pay peanuts... u get monkeys"

Here are some pics to share...

<<----- 2m Mirror in the living room. I love it!

<<----- 3 tier "doe, ray me", shoe cabinet, and most of it isn't mine.. haha

<<----- TV console that was designed by PQ and myself. Need to make amendments as Miko got the power sockets wrongly placed. sigh....

<<----- Our red hot kitchen. a place u cant miss.

85 days more to go

2008-05-14T22:53:00.004+08:00

yes!!! NDP 08 is only 85 days away... scary isn't it.. more so when there are still so many things to do.

This will be my final NDP before I hand over the baton to Garrett and it's going to be an event that I will miss organising, but like every things in life, it must go when its time to.

My relationship with NDP can be described as a love/hate relationship... "Love" in the sense that i enjoyed the company of the "brothers" that slogged together with me. Kudos to ppl like Ray, Fred, Alex and GPL, who are the nicest ppl to hang out with and made work so much fun even though the meetings can be draggy and boring at times. On the "hate" front, top of my list are the numerous quotations that I have to get even though I'm buying a 20 dollar stuff.. This can drive you crazy and these are the occasion whereby one gets vulgar. There were many occasions where I just want to say "F$%@" it.. I will pay!! This effort is just not worth it.. (You know what I mean...)

Looking at my long "To-Do-List", I just hope I can pull this event off and place my name among the greats who have completed it. It not going to be easy, but I will strive to make this event sensational for the nation. I experienced this feeling as deputy in 07 and it was great. Hopefully it will be a new high this 09 Aug and to achieve it, the next 85 days will probably be the busiest days in my life.

Wish me luck and pray for me...

bugs.

Completed First Quarter of 08

2008-04-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

Like a flash, the first 3 months of 2008 has come and gone.

Things are moving so fast that you hardly have time to think, take stock of what your achievements are and what you need to do. What about all the New Year Resolutions you made. Its simply amazing how fast pace it has been. Its a freaky feeling thinking about it.

I decided to blog this down bcos I felt that I havent got the time to do what I had set-up to do this year and this will serve as a subtle reminder. A "check-list" that will constantly remind me that I have to start reading more, shoot more photos, run more, set more time for my frenz and Jeanno and to start thinking of my bleak future... and a host of laundry list"

There are only 3/4 of a year left and in another flash, 2008 will draw to a closure. Hopefully by then, I will have accomplish something that i can be proud of.

Kukup, the Fishing Village

2008-03-02T18:50:00.005+08:00

On 23 and 24 Feb, siya and Jeanno went on a trip to Kukup together with the rest of the guys and gers from hall. It was really fun considering that I haven't taken a holiday for almost a year. Special thanks must be given to Corr for organising this mini-get away and all the hassle she went through in the coordination and buying the snacks for all of us to ensure that we were well fed.

Well, I must say I was expecting myself to stay in those wooden kelongs that you normally see on film, but to my surprise, and pleasantly so, we were nicely accommodated in a newly constructed house. Yes, one that is made from concrete, had air condition and proper sanitary facilities. This was certainly not what I expected from the very beginning.

The house we were staying in

The view at sunset

Although the house was big, with 6 rooms in total and 5 toilets, there was nothing much to entertain us, unless you are a big time karaoke fan. Our neighbours certainly had fun with the KTV, but most of us just weren't and we suffered along with it. So we ended playing MJ the whole day, a game Jeanno certainly excels in. You can never believe how lucky she is and won enough money from myself and Joe to cover the cost of the trip.. **pui**

Most of our meals were seafood in nature which isn't the best for health. Think our cholesterol level went up after the trip that we have to avoid seafood for the next month. We concluded the 2 day trip with a short tour of the fishing village where we were bought to a kelong that rear fishes. Pretty exciting and soon after, we were on our way back to Singapore. The returned journey took us about 2 hours to Bishan. As expected, we were all tired after the trip and most of us were napping on the bus back home. Dunno when my next holiday will be.. hopefully soon enough to keep me blogging.

Start of Renovation Works

2008-02-27T23:41:00.011+08:00

Haven't had the time recently to blog. Not excuses, but 2008 has been a busy year for me with train of projects handed to me, which don't seem ending.. Not in the near future. As far as i know, I'm rather occupied till September at the very least. And there is the wedding plans coming at the end of the year too.

In the midst of the heavy workload, there is still renovation works that i have to oversee upon as I'm rather particular about the small details (the tiling, the carpentry works and lights,etc). anw, its once a lifetime thingy, so you will agree with me that i should rather spend more effort on it to ensure that everything is according to what you want. The side effect to this is i guess more white hair.. haha..

Anw, renovation works for the house has just started, following CNY. Shall update some of the pics here for memory of my personal journey and for all to see.

How it looked when I first bought over...

Here are the pic showing the living room, kitchen, and the toilet when I first took over the house. Everything here will be hack away. In fact everything in the house as the previous owner was an old uncle and he did not maintain the house properly. Hence most of the things you see are rather old and you can see that he left an old flask behind too.

Reno Film hunting was equally filled with anxiety and excitement. It was also tiring. There are so many films to choose from in the market and every time you visit one, you get more confused as to what you want as each will present to you a different design. So we limited our research to 5 of these films and eventually chosen BAROQUE D'zsign (http://www.baroquedesign.com.sg/) due to pricing and ID was friendly to work with.

Here are some of the initial 3D drawings...

The bomb shelter

The living room

The red/black kitchen

The theme will be modern contemporary, and we will be choosing all the bright colours to go along with it. Hopefully, the end results will be nice.

Raegan the model

2007-12-17T15:28:00.001+08:00

Was at Kiwi's house last week to do some electrical appliance shopping. Since Raegan was there too, decided to use him as my "model" and Guinea pig and took a few shots of him with my fuji camera. Here are my top 3 selection (dunno why, but i seem to shoot better in B&W):

Jean was playing with Raegan: Found this exceptionally nice as it rather difficult to capture the expression of Raegan. He is either running around or playing with toys, which makes it difficult to see his expression.

Raegan and his lovely eyes. I need to snap this rather quickly. else he will pose himself in front of the camera.

The "fish" that raegan is playing with. Think the colour could be richer. need to focus the camera better next time.

ASEAN Summit Syndrome (ASS)

2007-11-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

Are you feeling the ASS? Haha…

I think most people would not, some don’t even care and may not even know what this Summit is all about, except for the road blocks that were placed all over the meeting venues. To me, it’s rather different though.

Another 2 more days of hard work and it will be over! Horray.. Pray that things don’t go wrong, the squabbling between the various parties will conclude and everyone to work in harmony.

After all, we are all working for the same cause rite... Boleh Singapore!

Where is my $money$...

2007-11-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

Somewhere out there in the bank of HDB, this is where my money has gone to.

From a bug life to living a begger life.. **sob sob** no xmas pressie for all my frenz. haha...

Turn Left or Turn Right... Am i heading for a dead end

2007-10-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

Its me again... Keeping my promise to Blog as frequent as time permits. Its a Friday nite and was supposed to attend Jeff's Bachelor party. (He too is kissing his freedom away!) However, i guessed work was tough this entire week and it has finally taken a toll on me. In this typical condition, one would rather spend time "nuahing" at home than to be out partying.. I guess this is what usually happens when one gets old and going out seems to be too cumbersome too, especially with traffic getting so heavy nowadays. Who is to blame for reducing COE prices!! btw, i got my COE at 26K.

This is rather ironic too... When I was younger and poorer, I would always try to find time to go out. Catch a movie, playing pool, shopping and partying... Now that im older with more savings, I would rather spend time at home to watch the shows on TV!

Anw, the topic today is about the cross road that I will face in a couple of months time. To those who know me well.. yes, its the time when my bond will end! The next logical question that will naturally follow is whether I should stay on or seek a greener pasture somewhere else. Frankly, i dunno ...

I used to love the job and was very passionate about what im doing. But over the recent months, the passion is diminishing, probably because I have matured, and seeing more of the organisation, which can irk me at times! It does not help when people around me are leaving as the job market is doing well. There are plenty of jobs and opportunities for people to explore what they truly want in life. There are times when I tell myself that I should follow suit and do something that I really want to be. Maybe a banker, an astronaunt, a jockey or a flyer, and moved on from the tree before i get fully rooted with the comfort and shelter it provided, for the big unchartered forest, where i may find my gold mine and "Happyness"!

Comfort is something nice to have, yet one can become complacment when you get it. There are too many considerations.

Getting a headache even as i type this... haha..

anson

Determined to bounce back

2007-10-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

I'm back.... just realised that its about 11 months ago since i last update this webby.. wow.. it didnt seemed that long to me when i can still vividly remember how i spent my last Xmas!

Anw, to show that im determine to be back blogging, i've decided to give it a facelift as well to show my sincerity and discipline. haha... hopefully it’s not a "come and go" attitude once again and go back into my cocoon when other things in life, i.e. work load and other preparations takes precedence.

Since its been 11 mths, I shall focus this update on "My life", an upcoming wedding plan, where I will kiss goodbye to freedom and peruse another life. One that is full of responsibilities. (a very tall order indeed)

I guessed most ppl would have either dropped your jaws or opened your eyes big like an owl when you see this.. WHAT e hell am I doing.. im getting MARRIED !! Well, if I may add… there isn’t a date fixed yet.. if that helps to calm you guys down a little.. =p
Yes. I think im ready for this big leap forward to take on the added responsibilities and yes I think im in love… with this ger who has painstakingly endured my “tonnes of craps” and “load of rubbish”. Someone who will compliment me and more importantly someone who I can share my life with..

We have since bought a place, with hell lots of $$, as property is all about location nowadays. Hopefully I made a correct judgment to dive into the frenzy market at this juncture. Shall pray hard on it. anw, we should probably be able to get the keys to the unit by end this year. Will welcome you guys over for a visit (give me ideas too on how to beautify the place)..

Moving forward, there‘s plenty that needed to be done.. starting from renovation to bridal packages to photography.. Im pretty sure 2008 will be rather a busy year ahead. Coupled with work and “ECAs” that I have recently embarked on, I just hope this BLOG is not neglected once again.

Will update more in my next post.. Time for bed.

Cheerio,
anz

Eighties gathering.

2006-12-15T17:00:00.000+08:00

Its me again. =p Rather surprise bah. for someone who has blogged for months and now writing2 articles in 2 days... hmm.. either im damn bored or im finding blogging fun! (hmm.. neither sounds correct.)

anw, there was 2 H8 gathering. yeah... 3rd one coming soon too next week. Its really nice to see those guys and gers, listening to their juicy gossips, love lifes, travels and what have you... away from the usual "send me that doc".. "Sir, this !@#$ will be as such".. that you get in office, to break the monotony.

The first gathering evolved around Thomz. He's back from China, but not for long. Still as fair and cute as ever, and i must say, he somewhat grew quieter. Not sure why though. Maybe it’s a norm for him when he's surrounded by cute china ladies that made his speechless. (how evil of me...) I must say, the gathering was one of the best even though we miss some of the 'legends'. but in terms of crappyness, shiokness, this is right among the top! Not to mention Amy's and Jem's beautiful singing... wow.. didnt knew that both could sing so well. From my personal view, it’s enough to qualify for P.superstar. haha... As for myself, my voice sucks.. I’m literally tone deaf. so nothing can be good coming out. Sorry to those who had to undergo such a torture. you know where not to bring me next time....

Second meeting was GT and YF wedding... yeah.... two love birds who had been together since uni days finally tying the knot. haha.. usual question pops out at times like these. "when is your turn huh" and i usually hate to answer them, simply because I keep repeating myself.. (shld have a recorder with me next time for such events). I have attended wedding unteempt times in Marriot, but i have to say... this was indeed special. From the setup, the montage, the menu, and the dinner, I guessed everything was properly planned. I really enjoyed myself in the dinner and I wish that they share a happy life together.

10 more days to Xmas… yippie.. all I want for Xmas is YOU………………..
cheerio
anz e bug

It's me writing... surprised..

2006-12-14T07:55:00.000+08:00

Having been bed ridden for 3 days, I thought it would be nice of me to visit my blog and contribute an article since its been months I last wrote. Oh well, almost forgot my user ID and Pass in the process.

Looking at my PDA to recall what actually zoomed passed these few months. I would say, anzzy hasn’t really done much. sigh.... Beside the normal routine stuff, I have been trying to pick up golf. (Cos my new office is crazy about it and the craze has hit me as well to be good at it) I must say, my colleagues at my new department are really nice. Normally as a new kid, and the most junior one, you tend to be bullied. (which is expectable). But what makes this office so unique is the willingness to cover each other duties when one is in need. Having said that, it doesn’t mean that life is so rosy after all. There had been times where I was scolded by boss (Big time) , till I felt kinna useless. But that is water under the bridge and part of the learning process...

Closer to the topic on why I’m at home. That is because I just had my wisdom tooth extracted. **ouch, pain** are the words commonly associated. I must really say it was damn painful on the first day and till now, my face is still swelling. To top it up, I would have to go through this same process again when I extract the other 2 teeth on my left side. The thought of it simply frightens me off... eeeks.... Why the hell do we have wisdom teeth when it causes so much discomfort to every human being. (and who coined it "wisdom teeth" in the first place... not very wise to begin with!!)

Anw, its 3rd day since extraction. Albeit still swollen, I’m going back to office later, to be a laughing stock, as i have to check my mails and clear some work. sigh.... maybe i should wear a mask! haha....

Drummer vs Harmonica... New Vs Old.. who wins after all??

2006-07-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

Remember the kid who drums in orchard, with his dad by the side watching? Im sure most of us know who this little fellow is.. the cute little one who is good on the sticks.

Well, as i was walking past orchard today, he was there drumming along, with a huge crowd gathered around him to witness his skills and technique on the drums, with many taking photo/video along the way. The crowd cheers and applause after each song and kindly show their appreciation by donating while he performs. At the comer of my eye, i saw this old man, probably in his late seventies and wearing a singlet, playing on his harmonica along the same stretch of road. He was playing oldies like "ye lai siang" on his old harmonica, which make no sense to most people, and also awaiting for people to contribute some money for his gimmick.

However, there was no one.... Not even a single soul around him listening to what he has in stored.

Deep inside me, i was wondering, why the old man didn’t choose a better location to bask and conduct his business? Was the old man trying to catch the crowd that is watching the drummer and hoped that people would also notice him as well?

Was his hoping that people while watching the cool drummer will also sympathise him and put some money into his small biscuit box as well? (Well, if he was thinking of that, he probably think wrongly, as I didn’t see anyone contributing while I walked past. However, I should reserve my judgment.

Are oldies (be it man or the song) is no longer appreciated? .. Food for thought..

anz

World Jump Day... or so it seems...

2006-07-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

Well, it was reported on http://www.worldjumpday.org/ that the world can be saved of it global warming through the efforts of human being. On 20 Jul 11.39.13 GMT, the earth can be driven out of its orbit by the combined effort of 600 millions human being jumping together. By doing so, the force generated on earth is enough to shift its present planetary dimension to another, thereby level the global climate.

When i first heard this , it was very much unbelieving. Deep inside, i was thinking how could the movement of human beings at different parts of the world create such an impact without cancelling each other, let alone to move the earth. As it turns out, FD told the audience that it was just a prank. ** Who on earth is so free to create such a storyline and post it on web, creating so much debate**

btw, even if you believe in it, its only meant for people in time zone from GMT -11 to GMT +2. People who jumped outside this zone would neutralise their effort..... haha....

Bugs....

Update #2..more will come as the days pass by

2006-07-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

In order to keep me going, heres update #2.

Bug's life isnt all about being a worker antz, but like the movie, there romance and friendship surrounding me.

Well, as for love life, things are nice, heart-warming and good. I must say Jeanno has been an exceptional partner. She been very supportive of my decisions and indeed a very understanding partner. There had been many occasions whereby i was held up in office even though we were supposed to meet at a certain time. I still clearly remember the day when watched the dance "Burnt The Floor". During that event, I was effectively 40 mins late as i was held up in office as our department needed to submit a proposal the following day. Coupled by a traffic jam while i'm on my way to the theatre, did do me much favor. Most people would have expected "showers, thunderstorm" scenario from their partners when that happen, but she truly recognise the situation i'm in. She has probably by now accepted it, but I'm not sure whether she had gotten used to it!! haha...

Seeing some of my friend's fate with their partners, i must say, she has been tremendously supportive of my work!

As for friendship, sorry guys/gers if i have been MIA for sometime. Its not that jeanno has soaked up all my hours and attention, (gotta help defend her here as well rite!) cos she really doesn't. I have been wanting to meet up with you all (Joe, JacK, John, Corr, XW, ZQ, Qi and the others), but somehow weekend seems to be the only available time slot that most of us have, as most of us have since take higher responsibilities in our respective fields. And as weekends are precious to all, we have somehow faded. Rest assure you people are always in my heart and i will try to organise an outing soon!

Luv,
anz

update #1 since May

2006-07-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. I was complaint of inactiveness in writing.. which largely explains why i blogged this issue....

To set the record straight. this blog has yet to "decompose". It just that bug's been tied down with many on going changes in life. (which is expected as well, for a man hitting his 30's soon!! Omg...)

As usual, my work predominantly occupies my entire weekdays. Energy sucking from 8am till i leave. You may call me lousy, weak or low in capacity, but I just feel "brain cramp" once i reached home. this is where and a sense of lethargic sets as well and naturally inhibits any other possible activity in the night, so as to allow recuperation for the next day. With age catching up, recovery seems to be slower than usual.

Weekends are precious. After a good 5 days work week, it always a welcome break to loosen up and interrupt the mundane working cycle. Been wanting to do so many outstanding things such as fishing, organising a picnic, but been procrastinating. * must really force myself to work on it!

Well, in essence, nothing much has changed. Buggy is still the same shortie (probably fatter now), drivning the same blackie. Still kinna slow in reading (and many other things) and a boring nut in many ways....

stay tune to update #2 soon..... hopefully..... Shall end this with a joke for a good laugh

True story,
I was happy. My girlfriend and I had been dating for over a year, and so we decided to get married. My parents helped us in every way, my friends encouraged me, and my girlfriend? She was a dream! There was only one thing bothering me, very much indeed, and that one thing was her younger sister. My prospective sister-in-law was twenty years of age, wore tight mini skirts and low cut blouses. She would regularly bend down when near me and I got many a pleasant view of her underwear. It had to be deliberate. She never did it when she was near anyone else.

One day little sister called and asked me to come over to check the wedding invitations. She was alone when I arrived. She whispered to me that soon I was to be married, and she had feelings and desires for me that she couldn't overcome and didn't really want to overcome. She told me that she wanted to make love to me just once before I got married and committed my life to her sister. I was in total shock and couldn't say a word. She said, "I'm going upstairs to my bedroom, and if you want to go ahead with it just come up and get me." I was stunned. I was frozen in shock as I watched her go up the stairs. When she reached the top she pulled down her panties and threw them down the stairs at me. I stood there for a moment, then turned and went straight to the front door. I opened the door and stepped out of the house. I walked straight towards my car. My future father-in-law was standing outside. With tears in his eyes he hugged me and said, "We are very happy that you have passed our little test. We couldn't ask for a better man for our daughter. Welcome to the family.

"The moral of this story is:"
"Always keep your condoms in your car." Hmmmm........

I still - Backstreet Boys

2006-05-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

"I Still..."

Who are you now?

Are you still the same

Or did you change somehow?

What do you do

At this very moment when I think of you?

And when I'm looking back

How we were young and stupid

Do you remember that?

Baby

No matter how I fight it

Can't deny it

Just can't let you go

I still need you

I still care about you

Though everything's been said and done

I still feel you

Like I'm right beside you

But still no word from you

Now look at me

Instead of moving on, I refuse to see

That I keep coming back

And I'm stuck in a moment

That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I've tried to fight it

Can't deny it

You don't even know

That I still need you

I still care about you

Though everything's been said and done

I still feel you

Like I'm right beside you

But still no word from you

Ohhhh

Wish I could find you

Just like you found me

Then I would never let you go (without you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)

I still feel you (I still feel you)

Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)

But still no (still no word) word from you

Was driving home today while listening to my usual C95 that i chanced upon this song. It took me awhile though to figure out who was the group singing.

I would say the lyrics was nice and meaningful, especially to those who seeks for true love and for those who found it hard to forget your past relationship.

While memories are dreams and experiences one holds dear, reality tells us that it takes both hands to clap. While its nice think back, is it really worth waiting for a bus that will never stop at where you are presently.

For lovers out there, hold onto your presently tightly, never take it for granted!

Welcome Back...

2006-04-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

Well...been away from blogging for awhile...not bcos i gave up, but simply lazy, procrastinating and telling myself that i will do it tml. oh well.. that tml never come. =p (was there a song with that title? hmmm...)

Its been a really long long time since i last type on this, and almost forgot my pw too!! haha.. but now that im back, i shall be diligent to blog regularly!

Anyway, how shall i start??haha... I was away most of the time in Feb, working oversea in Thailand, in the town of lopburi.. Ulu town, i would say, but ppl are real friendly, and willing to help each other. Something that you hardly see in Spore and took awhile to get used to, since its only right to reciprocate the pleasant gestures.. =p
Hmmm.. cant remember what i did in march though.. haha... must have just Zoom.. Zoom..past my life, without any significant glitch. haha... the only notable event was me getting an increment, which also meant more work expected. sigh... why cant increments come without prices to pay. haha.... wouldnt it be so nice.

April was a busy and hectic month.

Plenty of meetings and hiccups in work, coupled with boss taking urgent leave almost weekly... which didnt help! Work can be a direct relations to the number of pimples on my face, haha... which account why i couldnt see my dermatologist. Me and my lame excuses anyway... =p

1/3 of a year is almost gone... pretty fast, i would say. getting old, but hopefully still healthy.. getting tired easily too.. **hint hint** which explains why i get sleepy at night cos im simply brain dead at night. =p the emails, the work load, just gets to your toll at night at times... =p

For the remaining 2/3 of the year, let just hope that things get better or perhaps a motivation to keep me going strong. Going to another department soon, a new environment, new boss and a new challenge. Pray that the new colleagues will be nice too, something that is extremely impt to get me going.... Sabotage Bitches or Bastards can just ruin your perfectly day! i guess many would vouch for that.

Bali trip from my NATAS fair purchase upcoming in May .... going for a relax trip before fighting war again.. =p

Bugs...

Internal Struggle

2006-01-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

How many a times have our hands and brains been fighting... Almost constatly! whereby reality of food/poverty and dreams (i.e. model, artistis) were never aligned and we spent almost all of our life chasing and talking dreams, without ever realising/doing it.

The struggle get even harder when we get older whereby committement becomes heavier and the burden we are carrying lots heavier...

How often do we admire those who pluck up the courage to forgo everything he/she has to persue the dreams he/she holds....**thinking that he/she must be mad to let everything go** and only to regret after awhile why i didnt do the same when that same person came back successful...

It all abt WHAT IFs?? 2 words, with deep impact to our lives... A never ending struggle? Maybe... but ultimately, be happy cos you cant have best of both worlds!

Greetings to all...

2006-01-02T13:11:00.000+08:00

Happy New year to all.. And a belated Xmas greetings too! haha..

Apologies to the late greetings, but Bugs been tied down by so many things on hand, that 24 hrs is hardly enough for me. Work, Sleep (plenty) and to catch up with frenz and family seems to be occupying all my time, and not to mention......

Just came back from sailing over the new year. haha.. wat a way to end the year with a trip to no mans land whereby i was out with the Navy on a sailing trip. Exciting as it was my very first, but equally tiring as well as im not used to the sea and the "rocky feeling" that one experienced when your out in the sea. "hands-down" to sailors who live in the sea on a daily basis. I guess you either hate it or love it. =p

So 2005 came to a close and another chapter begins in my life. Going to be 27 this year. hmm.. Another year closer to 3o, more white hair growing and hopefully more matured and more charming** haha....

So what happened in 2005? Hmm... reflecting back, there was plenty of achievements and many misfortunes: (shall list down the significant ones for memories purposes) **Now the dairy comes in handy for reflection purposes**

Jan 05 - The significant/highlight for the month was Bug's involvement in the Tsumani relief mission in Indonesia

Feb 05 - short 28 days: nothing to highlight.

March 05 - Earthquake hit P.Nias and Bug was sent to Indonesia again

April 05 - It has to be the "sound of music" and Bug starting his Malay course. Selamat Pagi. lastly, Bug took up blading and walked on wheels..... (seems like a hectic month)

May 05 - Star wars!!! the much awaited Episode III to bring a closure to the series. Fantastic! A trip to Bangkok was a well deserved break! (I guessed this was the first time i saw PQ too!)

June 05 - Runway Cycling

July 05 - Bug's Malay exams which he eventually passed!! mid year Bonus!!

Aug 05 - Batam relaxing trip.. woo... haha..... paying of road tax and insurance. :( **broke mth

Sept 05 - Bug's hatch day, though not many gifts. **sob sob** also 9-11 anniversary. wow.. Officers mess promotion gala, though i wasnt in the list. **sob sob** = not so good mth. haha..

Oct 05 - Base dinner.. Bug's in china wear. start of hell mth as most colleagues went down under for exercise.

Nov 05 - Equally hell as Bug had to oversee most stuff. 03 Nov was sweet, while "rent" wasnt that fantastic afterall.

Dec 05 - Fat Bonus!! horray... Watch "ChestNut", starring Hossen Leong., which was funny. Rld got married too.

So that summed up my 2005...... and looking forward to a wonderful 2006.

God bless to all..

Time for a new post.

2005-12-19T20:43:00.000+08:00

Wah.. realised that i last update my BLOG since 07 Dec. That like12 days ago... wah... been so very busy, juggling all the things in life. 24 hrs a days just flashes by ever so quickly.

Boss "chu" stun again when he told me he had to go back to Australia for a briefing... "yin liao loh".. wat can i say... he further stun me when he said he would like to take 3 days off.. (you are the boss, what can i say... !!) Decided to endure this and wait for my power leave in Jan.. haha... Hongkong - CNY - **still thinking if i should to another country** (anyone wanna travel... Im free till 10 Feb)

Watched Chestnut, 2 weekends ago and told Jeanno that i would certainly BLOG this. Its damn funny... haha.. It talked about the significant issues raised over the year for singapore, ranging from NKF attentions, to star/president charity shows, to spoofing star wars and the musical "Sound of Music".. Thumbs up to Jonathon Lim and Hossan Leong.They were marvelous!! Next year show will be their 10th anniversary and will certainly be worth watching.. ** I shall try not to be late the next time round**

Since then, my life been evolving round computers and emails. sigh... sad man with a sad life! Working in a fire department which has constant fire spreading all around. **more white hair too** and things doesnt help in this festivities mood whereby most ppl are away, while deliverables remain unchanged. sigh... **shaking head once again** ---seems like this is becoming more of a complaint blog of mine..

some updates:
1) My bowling season came to a close this week. sigh.. No more of my favorite game until Feb!
2) Painstakingly completed the Jig Saw Puzzle yesterday.. Kudos to myself!! haha
3) Still need to get my Xmas present for all my dear frenz.... getting late... OMG... Xmas cards too... **siaoz**
4) I got a new HP.haha... samsung X200... Not too bad.. but isnt too good either... its a non-camera phone...** you guys know y lah....**

Joke # Ironic answers to health #

2005-12-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

Q: I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolonglife. Isthis true?

A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, andthat's it... don't waste them on exercise. Everythingwears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.

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Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits andvegetables?

A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables.So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass(green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetableproducts. <Hmm.. I think thats how ZQ got her vege intake>

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Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?

A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine, tequila is made out of cactus, that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even more of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms up!

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Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?

A: Well, if you have a body and you have body fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc. <thats lame.....>

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Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?

A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!! Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it.How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?

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Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a littlesoft around the middle?

A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.

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Q: Is chocolate bad for me?

A: Are you crazy? HELLO Cocoa beans--anothervegetable!!! It'sthe best feel-good food around!

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Q: Is swimming good for your figure?

A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.

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Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?

A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!

Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptionsyou may have had about food and diets!Remember my happy little chums. Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skidin sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolatecoated strawberries in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and screaming -WOO HOO!What a Ride!

to misery.... and a full lined up weekend

2005-12-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

Battery running low, deadline edging close, workload getting high, pimples getting more and arrows still flying... i sometimes wonder what have i got myself into.. =p

Enough of complaints and back to reality. The day started with yet another busy day. "fireman" started fighting fire since early morning. Needed to rush a report by 10am this morning. sigh... and that big "" --------> "" just came flying towards me, as if i have a ""pls shoot me" sign pasted on me. haha....

[The hall 8 quote of "im the man on the moon, dont shoot me", just flashed across my mind] haha... guess im still longing for those days back n university. (how i wish i can be back as a student all over again... :o)
Every mins seems like hours and days like years.. (seems to be exaggerating here! but was telling chandru that my workload is piling up like a greedy man buffet's plate)

Im already looking forward to the coming weekend already. haha... time seems to passby ever so slowly.
activities lining up this weekend:

1) finish up the jig saw puzzle
2) wash mitsu, its damn dirty now... sigh...
3) catch "pride and prejudice"
4) SSO - Chopard Xmas concert
5) Nutcracker III

Looking forward to my 2 weeks leave in late Jan..... Disney land awaits me....

Climbing out of the shit hole... Maybe momentarily

2005-12-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

I was blogging last night until the screen blank out on me!! Damn... shall make another attempt to recall what i wrote and pen them down! (My blog’s getting boring.....)

Looking back.. I have been in this shit hole for over a year.. time flies...

As Jeff was saying over wine last friday with the guys.. "We have dug ourselves deeper into this pile of shit, set up by my dear fellow colleagues"... It was quite funny when he said that. **Everyone had a good laugh too**

So, boss is finally back.. Nice to see the fat man back in office... which also means that the exclusive parking lot, which i have been happily using for the last 7 weeks were o longer mine... sigh.. but who cares about parking lot when it means less shit for me.... but as i find out though the day itself, it wasnt meant to be so. (Im still stuck in shit!)

As Andrew Matthews mentioned in his book: "Happiness Now", there was a section that highlight that a person adapt to the environment and when stuck in a smelly toilet for some time, he eventually get used to it and shit doesnt smell as bad after all... Maybe that why adapting to the environment will ultimately make one happy... But i beg to differ... Im not really that happy given the tonnes of work and the flying arrows that comes towards me daily...sigh.... the massive amount of white hair on me can vouch so.... **Time to get a dye**... (For the wrong reason!)

Anyway, glad that boss is finally back. but sid, deep and chan are consecutively taking turns for their trip. sigh.... still no time to take a short breather...

well.. looking at the bright side, the year end bonus are coming! (though it isnt alot, but at least something to look forward to!)...

A shitty Anz...

Sun...

2005-12-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning at 10am.. good rest and wanted to wash wifie.. but as usual.. was lazy as the sun was blazing. =p (excuses)

so decided to play jig saw puzzle before i meet up with the Uni guys to blade. haha... completed more than half the puzzle after 3 hours of hard work.. haha

all the pieces look so similiar and i had a hard time piecing them altogther. haha... **damaging to my perfect eyes** haha.... what is left now are all the same colours... hhaha... think will take a long time to get it done. =p

left home at 2pm to meet up with the Mecha guys. haha... havent seen them for so long. and it was fun blading in ECP after i have been busy with all my work for the last 6 weeks. a well deserved break, before the next wave. **spotted more white hair.. sigh... growing old soon...**

Dinner with the guys was fun too.. alot of food, ranging from satay been hoon, stingray, musscles, chicken wings, satay, beef noodles.. mummy.... haha.. and very full too..

watched stars award... nothing fanastic..The usual ppl won. Not many surprises.. though the field were alot tougher than before..

Time for bed....0730 tml... sigh.. monday blues...

Sat...

2005-12-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

Orchard was crowded over the weekend as i was out shopping for Xmas. Guess everyone was scrumbling for gifts for the Xmas season... and to admire the Xmas lighting that is put up by the shopping malls as well as along Orchard.

Talking abt that... I have yet to get any gifts for all my frenz.. haha... (But i have bought alot of gifts for myself!) Was shopping along Pargon when Ethen, the 6 yrs old musician, was seen playing the drumb outside Paragon. I must say he is really good for someone his age. Confident and classy in playing, though i cant really appreciate. but i must say.. some ppl who are probably 5x his age cant play as well as he does. =p

Caught Aeon Flux on sat evening.. Well, short film and predictable. not much fighting scene too. probably 5/10. So guys... do watch it if u really have time and the money to spend! haha...

Sat night was spent playing MJ with the kakis. haha... **For the first time... I won money!!** Horray.. Horray.... 8 bucks in all.. not too bad for a beginneer like me. hmm... but there are still tonnes of things that i do not understand in the game... (all shi fu's, pls be patient with me... i will take a longer time to stack the tiles and process which one to throw.. so dont get agitated!)

a gambling Anz...

HP - and the goblet of fire

2005-11-29T00:48:00.000+08:00

Met up with Joe this evening to catch "Harry Potter - and the goblet of fire". Was supposed to meet him at abt 7pm but only managed to leave office at about 7.25 as our department meeting was dragy. close to 4 hours of sitting inside the meeting room listening to briefings and boss guidances pertaining to the issues raised.. haha.. almost fell asleep. =)

Hmmm.. The show was not too bad.. But Joe said it wasnt up to his expectation and he was bored at the beginning of the show. Well, we concluded that ppl who read the book will probably have known the full content of the movie plot and that you would have expected much more than ppl like me who is simply contented with the movie effects and the seeing the progression of Harry, Ron and Hermione in their 4h year of study. Given its only 2.5 hours.. there is only this much that can be shown on the screen rite.... so dont expect too much else no one is going to get the books!

Both of us also came to the following conclusions:

1) "Voldemort" isnt as fearful as it seems to be! haha..
2) Hermione is getting more beautiful by each episode... soon to be a real beauty when she grows up!.. Drew Barrymore in the making!... talk abt investment since young! haha...

In all, i did enjoy the show and will be waiting for another yr before school at Hogwarts starts for the next episode of HP and the order of the phoenix... till then.. =p

Harry Potter & the kingdom of Anz..... haha... talk abt being lame at 1am in the morning..

Weekend.. wee....

2005-11-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

Caught "RENT" over the weekend and not that fanastic that i tot it would be. sigh... **Maybe i expected it to be among the likes of "SAIGON" or "SINGING IN THE RAIN" .. But sad to say, it wasnt!

@@Rent@@ - Sweeping all major theatre awards, including 1996 Tony Award for Best Musical as well as the Pulitzer Prize, RENT captures the heart and spirit of a generation. Inspired by Puccini’s La Boheme, RENT is a joyous, breathtaking and often heartbreaking musical that celebrates a community of young artists as they struggle with the soaring hopes and tough realities of today’s world.

But to give credits, Karen Mok is fantastic in this. Her excellent vocal and her acting is no doubt something to look forward to whenever she is on stage. so it wasn't that bad afterall... =p (looking forward to west side story in april.. hehe..)

Had dinner at this Jap restaurant in Bugis on sat evening and i must say, it fanastic.. more than made up for the musical. haha.. though it was expensive. **I would say, its in the league of Wasabi Bristro - Marina**

Sashimi was fresh and the dinner set we ordered comes with appititizer, sidedishes and desserts. wow... it was certainly a nice mouth watering meal.

Spent most of my sunday's playing with Jig Saw puzzle.. really testing my patience and eyesight. haaha... the pieces are so similar. till i got a headache. haha...

Updates... Its been a long time

2005-11-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

Almost couldnt remember my login ID as i havent got the chance to write this online diary for ages. **14 days in fact**

Haha.. been really tied down... Oh well.. life has got a bit different. so you cant blame me for having less time nowadays. So many things that i want to do, but only 2 hands and a brain.

Got a shocker this week that boss isnt coming back from his 6 weeks "lollipop" trip and he has decided to go to Gold Coast for a holiday... *damn,, WTF* This equates to me having to cover his duties for another week more! sigh.. life is so so unfair. Looking at the projection, I cant clear my leave till at least end January when CNY is over. sigh... BTW, Im planning to go on a holiday if possible in early Feb... Maybe to aussie.. =P (My turn to get a well-deserved break from work)

Also, Im forecasted to go to the land of dreams (Thailand) in Feb too... Wee.... Will be travelling much more in yr 06

Cant wait for "RENT" this weekend at Kallang Theatre. Been waiting for it for some time and with its opening tml, hopefully the reviews will be good.*Karen Mok.... drool* haha... I would say she is an extremely talented artist, fluent with many languages and sexy too! Cant wait for her performance this sat! Will update you guys when i watch it. BTW.. next will be west side story in April! Hoho.... another broadway performance. =p

As usual, been busy with work and plenty of meetings to attend on behalf on boss. well, sometimes i feel cheated having to attend these meetings when i dont even know what im suppose to be doing there. haha... kinna under representation and stressful at times when u are asked questions that you have no answers to. feel stupid as well too! well, another week more before i can say goodbyes to these meeting! haha...

Also havent been playing golf since ben departed for the exercise. Do miss this kaki. well.. at least i will see him next week and time to catch up with him again. haha... dunno if i have a pressie from him.. *doubt so!*

Haha... this entry is getting boring... time to stop to prevent ppl from snoring. =p nothing much more exciting to update.. Things i did for the past 2 weeks

1) Bowling - In which my ball got a deep scar. sigh...
2) Blading and watched movie in which i saw wx at both locations coincidentally. Talked abt striking the toto
3) Hall 8, Blk 42 meetup at Lao Bei Jin- Food was good, though ex. chat alot and missed those good old times.
4) Bought a Jig Saw puzzle - and only the borders are done. haha.. need more motivation here. 5) Bought another 3 books at borders.. Joe u can get from me if u need books. Plenty here.
6) Celebrated SW birthday. haha... it was fun! and rld's car got summoned. luckily i didnt. yet to pay for the pressies...

Seems lots...

Dinner with Mummy...

2005-11-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

Ya.. it was weird...

Cant recall when it was the last time i ever dine with mummy alone... Hmmm.. Probably when i was still a kid bah...

Decided to knock off damn early today (5.45pm) when the sun was still clearly visible (though it was raining and the traffic was bad as a few traffic lights has gone faulty due to the thunderstorm) And that got me a bit confused with cars coming from all directions... *panicky*

Got home.. but no one was around.
Eric is busy preparing for his exams while Eddie decided to hang out with his colleagues, which leaves me having to settle dinner on my own when mummy got home! She suggested to eat out and i was quite surprised by that decision. "Hmmm.." And that struck me thinking when was the last time we ever sat down and eat together. =)

Anyway, it was nice to be eating with mum. Though all we talked about was complaining how lousy the food and drinks there is and how certain stalls operate. (Trust me... they cant even get a "Teh-O" rite!)

Impressive Impreza

2005-11-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

Was passing by Ngee Ann City on sun and happened to see the Challenge.. Tired legs and hands were seen as the participants struggle through the hot weather. Think the lady on the boot of the black car won eventually. (I think it was her when i saw the papers today)

64 hrs of hardwork for a car of 60k... Hmm..

Mathematically
Gain of:
1hr = $938
Fame for a month....

Loss of:
Sleep
Health
Food
Torture

Of anger... tiredness & clearing mails

2005-11-09T20:19:00.000+08:00

Munching on my juicy apple and updating my blog...

Nothing significant to highlight today. Work was very much normal. Boss is still down under for exercise and wouldnt be back soon. Shoulders getting heavier, but with mixed feelings..

Havent been reading much too since the completion of "The C words" Getting lazy!

Anyway, woke up on the wrong side of the bed today and felt moody. (haha... )Dunno why also.. but just didnt feel good.. maybe i demanded too much and maybe it is just me being silly. Luckily, i was busy this morning.. else i would have been nasty in office. **evil tots**

Bashed through jungle this morning too. (Kinna back to the old army days where we have to navigate ourself through the thick bushes of Brunei).. But this was different. Conducting site survey and almost got our vehicle stuck... What a tiring morning and came back all sweaty. eeks...

Afternoon was spent on briefings and clearing mails. mailbox getting large and out of control and time to sort out the 50 sub-folders in my mailbox.. not an easy feat!

And by then... its time for home...

That how bug's spent his day in office....

Ageing Body Cells = ABC

2005-11-07T21:10:00.000+08:00

Im sufferring from ABC!!

Hmm.. my hands and back are starting to peel now.. * retarded reaction*

Well.. its almost 2 weeks since the adventure trip and im only getting the burnt now! The body is kinna slow to the reaction. ** issit a sign of an old body, taking a longer time to react to event??**.. If it is... its getting me edgy.

Anyway, it look gross with the skin getting flacky all again. (hopefully, it doesnt get worse) =p Luckily, didnt go to the H8 Alumni gathering as i tot i would probably be "roasted" if i were to be there, as i heard that HK didnt survive from that event and suffered from 3rd degree burnt!

So Aloe Vera and BIOTHERM moisturiser are my life saving creams for now and pray that I get new and beautiful skins! haha... (If only my face can get a new face lift!) haha....

ABC Bug.......

A choice of complications

2005-11-06T11:00:00.000+08:00

Joe said it was a bad time when i told him abt the scenarios that were presented to me. "Really a bad time" was what he said when we were dining at Bishan that night.

Maybe it was a test of faith from God to let me decide on what i actually want in life.. As Adrian also said the other night at Wala Wala... Its "sliding doors" came true to my life... A choice that will shape my entire life!

I still remember that show vividly when Adrian mentioned it on Friday's night. Images of that show in 1998 flashes across my face as if im "Gwyneth Paltrow" If you have not watch that show before, here is a background to it:

Sliding Doors (1998)
Directed byPeter HowittWriting credits Peter Howitt

There are two sides to every story. Helen is about to live both of them ...at the same time. Romance was never this much fun.
Plot Outline: A London woman's love life and career both hinge, unknown to her, on whether or not she catches a train. We see it both ways, in parallel.

Anyway, Been busy with work. ""With more powers comes greater responsibilities". That how im viewing life now. Paid to do the job and get the scoldings. Sigh... when will it ever be my turn to do the scoldings. haha.. Judging from my character... Guess it will be damn difficult to be scolding ppl.

** More white hair spotted... STRESS!!**

An ageing Bug...

2005-11-01T16:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Halloween greetings to all...

The only thing i did today

2005-10-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

ATTEND MEETINGS

Yeap... Thats the only one thing i did today. From 0800 Hrs ---- 1800Hrs(Thats 10 hours!) OMG

And thats only 2 meetings, with a 15 mins lunch break in between as i was too hungry to carry on.

And my "air time"in both meetings can account for less than 1 hr. haha.. which means close to 9 hours is spent listening (and prehaps yawning and the occasional sms to keep myself awake!)

What an efficient day, when i can only check my mails at 6pm! (Only to find it being flooded again! haha) Seems like this is a lose-lose battle...

What a way to start the week again... BLUES....

~~Bug's loosing battle~~

M.I.D.W.E.E.K

2005-10-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. Its only midweek.. Time is really passing by slowly for this week..

Just got back home after a nice meal in town and had a wonderful time chatting. Luckily the carpark wasnt that full today.Hmm.. I wonder why, when its usually fully packed by now... Guess people were out having fun, when there were still a crowd in town on a Wed nite! Hmmm.. could there be something ongoing which had eluded me..

Anyway.. Life been tough without boss. Away for another 5 more weeks. Starting to feel the strain and pressure in having to cover his duties while he is having his fun. Damn... when will it be my (AND Rightfuly MINE) turn to be take a break. haha... Guess no point complaining except to bit the bullet and endure through times like this. haha...

Hmm... nothing interesting to highlight today. The usuals stuff at work. (3 hrs meetings... answers call.... get scolding .... scolding ppl... haha.. part and parcel of life.. isnt it)

May the weekend comes quickly.. =p

10 Tell talke signs in my job

2005-10-17T19:11:00.000+08:00

Following Amy's entry on signs of a teacher.. i shall make an attempt to describe mine's too...

1) When you never have to buy any clothings and pants for work
2) Your name tag is flash right across your chest!
3) when acronyms are our talking language (i.e. NDP)
4) When you have to work during public holidays
5) We are perceived to be earning more than the others.

6) We travel so often to desserts and other ulu place that no one have heard of...
7) Keeping fit is a given and staying unfit gets punished.. so does a high BMI
8) Every human being entering the work place will be screened upon for dangerous cargo. haha...
9) Where ppl calls u "Sir" and "Mdm"
10) And when you can still sing "Majulah Singapura" at the age of 40 understanding what it actually means.

Post Mortem

2005-10-17T18:30:00.000+08:00

Im back.... Finally typing away again.., though i have nothing much to update on.

@@Things i did last week@@

1) Watch "40 yr old virgin"... really funnie...
2) Played Majong, when im quite lousy at it and of cos loose money to the MJ killer.... who is inevitably the host.
3) Did plenty of work.. cleared tonnes of my outstanding issues... still have another tonne
4) Read abt 100 pages of my story books
5) Nuah in the comfy of bed
6) soaking in the modish atmosphere of Vansh restaurant and cosy bay
7) Lunch at Ikea

@@Things i didnt do last week@@

1) drink
2) blade
3) golf
4) watch football

So its a start of another week and im feeling the BLUES already...

27 hrs of work and stilll counting.....

2005-10-11T12:33:00.000+08:00

Started the Monday at 7.30 am in the morning for our usual Monday's briefs.. sigh... (who on earth decided that briefings must be done on Monday's!).. and thats probably how Monday blues originate from. =)

From then on, its work and more work till now... calculated that i worked 27 hours since then and im still feeling fresh! damn.. im getting inhumane or im becoming a real workaholic!

Just got home not long ago. Mentally wise, im completely drained, but im not sleepy yet. but shall force myself to nap after this cos i have to get back to office at 1530 for a meeting. haha... talk about being highly paid.. guess if you divide it out with the working hours and flexible schedule i have, think im probably lower paid than a maid. haha... enough of complaints.. haha...

Shall take a nap before i return to office. Its good Tuesday.. Bowling nite!

A bug's lousy work schedule..

H8 gathering

2005-10-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

Back from dinner with the old Hall mates.. And its really nice to catch up with some of them, which I havent seen for awhile. Wowo... It was sure funny bringing up all the old jokes and adventures that we had. Some of which were new to me, while some remain as classic and part of my uni life... We definitely had a good laugh.

It was dinner at "De Grandeur Restaurant" off Stadium Walk, Kallang Theatre, which was where I watched my first ever theatre play "Miss Saigon" at. A place where there were fond memories and equally miserable ones... Well, I must say, the place hasnt changed much since I last went there years ago... The red carpet leading up to the theatre still remains... =p

The Buffet dinner was normal. Not something unique considering the price we paid. Well, they said Im picky.. haha... well.. which I must admit I am when it comes to dining.. For that price, could have gone for a fabulous Jap food meal! haha..

But it was certainly nice to meet some of the old hall mates and I do appreciate forums like these where we can catch up on the good old times and rekindle the fire we used to share. Kudos to those who came today! I definitely enjoyed myself.. =) See ya soon!!

Friday morning @ Home

2005-10-07T08:18:00.000+08:00

Friday morning and im at home.. Woo..woo... Kinna not used to it

Not that im on leave, but im on night shift today.. Haha... And thats bcos "deerp" is leaving for australia this sun and there is a need to shift the working cycle!

Friday nite shift means... I cant be out a FRIDAY nite.. OH manz... I will be spending the sat at home resting.. OH manz... lugi man...

Enough complaining, but i dont mind to be working on night shift once in awhile as i get the quiet time at work to do all my work, clear my outstanding mails and get uninterupted. No "fire fighting" today. wee.....

Hmmm.. how shall i spend this beautiful morning??
Shall think about it!

Quotes for this week.
Teach me and I forget, Show me and I know, Involve me and I understand

OK all.. Have a great day and weekend ahead!

A So-So Sunday

2005-10-02T20:38:00.000+08:00

Me today: " Still awaiting for a sign" ... can't help thinking.. Will there be a sign?

Start.....
Woke up in the wee hours this morning as i slept pretty early last nite.. It was 5.30 when i woke.. Dunno why i was awaken as there wasnt any noise at home too. But since im awake, i went online and had a cup of drink before i head back to bed! Silly isnt it...

Finally got out of bed at 8am for my usual regular exercise in ECP. Traffic was smooth as most people are probably still in bed as the weather was cooling too! haha... Took another route and went past the church i used to go and felt remorseful. *Shake head* (My heart is telling me that i should follow ""him"" to church soon... It was really nice of him to follow the way of God and hope that he too find eternal love in God.)

It was windy in ECP as a storm was coming. We could feel the south west monsoon wind hitting on our face as we rested in bedok jetty. *Kinna Shiok, but also scary as we are afraid that we can't find shelter if the rain do hit us* By then the wind was gusting real heavy and each stride becomes harder and more tiring as we blade our way back.. Thank goodness that we made our way back to Mac.. but by then.. my shin is already hurting.. haha....

Came back home after lunch with the guys and gers and finally completed the entire season I of the Desperate Housewife. Can't wait for season II to start. Read my book "Rules of work" but fell asleep after 3 pages... damn lousy.. (Either im damn tired or the book is damn boring... I chose the former!)

Watching football now in my room and waiting for the match between Pools and Chelsea.. Will my fav beat them this time??

A bug's life...

Children's Day Buy

2005-10-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

Been wanting a watch recently and it doesnt help when Bug and Joe went for a shopping spree yesterday. So here it is....

Movement: Quartz movement Water resistance: 200 m
Crystal: Scratch resistant sapphire crystal
Case: Steel
Bezel: Steel with PVD titanium treatment/ Unidirectional turning bezel/ “TAG Heuer Easy Grip” system which includes oversized flutes
Dial: Luminescent hour-markers and hands/ Hand applied indexes and numerals 3, 6, 9 and 12
Crown: Screw in crown with double seal and PVD titanium treatment/ “TAG Heuer Easy Grip” system which includes oversized flutes
Bracelet: Coloured Rubber strap
Clasp: Pin buckle

Guess there are always reason to buy a gift for myself.. hehe.... I should stop shopping with Joe... He's a bad influence.. haha..

Sat Update

2005-10-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

Missed Adrian Bday party last nite as i wasnt in a clubbing mood. Mind still unease and wild thoughts flashing all over. sigh.. Wat must i do? Wat is my plan.. Sit and wait? I have no plan... Im completely helpless over what my next move is. In fact, my mind is going crazy.

Decided that the best move now is to get out of home and enjoy myself in order to stop this mind bogging game. Met Joe for lunch and caught a show. I wanted to catch "Cinderella Man" but he is more interested in "Corpse Bride" as he is a Tim Burton fan.

Having watch his last 2 hits in "Big Fish", "CATCF", As for i dont mind catching his works again as his style of chorography is pretty unique.

@@Background to the show@@
Set in a 19th century European village, this stop-motion, animated feature follows the story of Victor, a young man who is whisked away to the underworld and wed to a mysterious Corpse Bride, while his real bride, Victoria, waits bereft in the land of the living. Although life in the Land of the Dead proves to be a lot more colorful than his strict Victorian upbringing, Victor learns that there is nothing in this world, or the next, that can keep him away from his one true love

Although its an anime, Tim Burton paid much attention to the details in each character and i must say, it not bad after all. Though not as funny as "The Incredible", this show has got the typical style of Tim in the "gloomy settings" that he usually creates after upheaval in his personal life in the death of his patents and his r/s with his wife.

Well, guys... Though this is a short film, but something nice to watch if you have nothing else to catch!

Inspiration

2005-09-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

It has gotta be this...

My Opel convertible dream...

Time to be selfish.... and i have to do it!

Just back from work

2005-09-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

Just got home from a hard day work and practice at the driving range. Hmm... Not too bad a day! Feeling fresh and re-charged even though its only mid-week.

Work was as usual ..... NORMAL. Nothing spectacular and worth mentioning. Day just flew by with my "outstanding” sub-folder in my mailbox growing. Haha... Too many things on hand and decided to "Tai-Ji" some across to my guys to heck! Felt bad initially but guessed this has to be done to allow me some breathing space.

**I heard one of my guy said .... "F*#@" when i told him to check his mail for another action item** Sigh...but decide not to be soft hearted. In summary.. I threw him 3 arrows today. Issit too much?

Chandru (My dearest frenz in base) had a chat with me with regards to life and asked me "How long do i intend to be hiding in my own cocoon".. I failed to answer him.

That kept my mind thinking for a long while too while driving home and i still feel that the past had all along been dragging me. I had kept me in that pool of mud even though i have been trying to get myself off it. Guess only new challenges and a new motivations in life can erase all these memories and allow me to start afresh. But how/when/where am i going to find this!!

Still believe that God and time will tell.... Sound loser enough.. But that Anz...

Quiz for the mth... Took 2 brains to solve

2005-09-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

A beautiful Sunday

2005-09-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

Day started at 9am with Bug travelling to ECP for the usual weekend exercise.
The roads were quite empty today. Guess mostly people are still in bed!

As usual, the rest are late. haha... and I started blading on my own fist and only to realise that Joe had to park at MacDonald’s as this kakis had no blades. So that means me had to 1) drive to Mac or 2) Blade from Fort Rd. I chose the latter.

In the end, this is the total distance covered.. Longest ever!

Fort Road =====> Mac ====> Bedok =====> NSRCC =====> Bedok =====> Mac. Completely shack after that. Came home, washed up and slept and had a bad dream! Really bad and it’s still vivid in my brain. Got up in a state of shocked.

Work up and started reading to finish up "The curious incident of the dog in the night time" which I eventually did.

Was expecting a reunion of the parents which wasn't mentioned. sigh... so sad.. and I though it would end like that so that Christopher can have a healthy family to draw strength from. Anyway.. Horray.. another down. Maybe time to start on "Flowers for Algernon"?? But I just bought another book, "The C words" - which is about commitment in a relationship. haha... so which one should I start first. hmmm.. Dilemma..

Lovely day

2005-09-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

The day im been waiting for.. And its beautiful.

Lunch at Wasabi Bristro is fantastic. The food is lovely and the ambiance is simply amazing. Had tempura set meal which comes with salad and fruits. *definitely a must go for all Jap lovers*

Tried watching "The longest Yard" for the 3rd time and again i failed. The view from the restaurant stopped our track this time. We decided to sit and watched the world go by than to catch the show. haha.. lazy arent we!

Sat in Gelare cafe reading my book in the afternoon and slipping on my Cafe Latte was something that i never experienced before. Quite interesting except that i got bored after a while. haha... felt like sleeping.. hehe..

Football was next with Liverpool against Birmingham. Ended in draw again. Sigh.. 2 - 2

Sunday's coming and its exercise day...

Song for the day....

CORRINNE MAY - SAVE ME

I drift I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, Im yearning
I'm like putty in your hands

I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a rollercoaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who I am
Just take my hand and

Save me from this place
Heavens knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you

I had a dream that I
Was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die
But out of nowhere you came and rescued me
There must be some grace in the touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid

Oh' cause you
Save me from this place
Heavens knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting

Before I met you
Life was slow-mo
So slow-mo
I though I had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down

Save me from this place
Heavens knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows you've come to

Save me from this place
Heavens knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you

Wonders of Info Technology

2005-09-22T21:03:00.000+08:00

HARD DISK GIRL:
she remembers everything, FOREVER...

RAM GIRL:
she forgets about you, the moment you turn her off

WINDOW GIRL:
everyone knows that she can't do a thing right, but no one can live without her.

SCREENSAVER GIRL:
She is good for nothing but at least she is fun

INTERNET GIRL:
Difficult to access most of the time

SERVER GIRL:
Always busy when you need her

MULTIMEDIA GIRL:
She makes horrible things look beautiful

CD-ROM GIRL:
She is going faster and faster

EMAIL GIRL:
Every ten things she says, eight are junks

VIRUS GIRL:
Also known as "wife'' when you are not expecting her, she comes.
Installs herself and uses all your resources.
If you try to uninstall her, you will lose something.
If you don't try to uninstall her you will lose everything.....

The Silent ME

2005-09-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

Your Blogging Type Is the Private Performer

Your blog is your stage - with your visitors your adoring fans.At least, that's how you write with your witty one liners.And while you like attention, you value your privacy.You're likely to have an anonymous blog - or turn off comments.

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

~Welcome Home~

2005-09-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

Location: Home
Body: Painful.. Acute pain on the waist
Feel: Happy.. bowled well tonight. 198/199/181 ====> Ave: 192.6 (higher than my IVP winning average!)
Listening: Beethoven Symphony No. 9 (Scherzo)

Backed home, with my lower back in pain. Guess im getting fat until the waist can no longer support me! sigh... need to start running again soon.

Been bowling well recently. Goodie... So happy....still got room for improvement.. but slowly im feeling the shots again. =p

Been runnin garound office today to get the new system in place. Sigh... was so blur initially that i looked toopid in front of others... sigh... felt so dumb in front of all the others. But luckily, the transition went well. Hopefully, its stable and no complaints from everyone!

Its only midweek! Cant wait for this sat! hehe....

Anz is happy....

2005-09-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

Ai-xin-moon cake... Haha... A liitle more practise and i may invest setting up a bakery shop!

Weekend Update

2005-09-18T19:52:00.000+08:00

@@SAT@@
Wanted to have Wasabi Bistro in Oriental Hotel with Joe on Sat, but ended up eating Kyo - Nichi in Maina Sq instead. Hmm.. World of difference, but we still enjoyed the meal isnt it.

Guess what.. saw ZQ while walking to Marina Sq. Wat a coincidence! She was with her frenz celebrating a bday and it was nice to see her in town. **she dressed really well** - thumbs up.. But Joe said she's getting thinner by the day. haha....

Both of us had wanted to catch "The Longest Yard - Adam Sandler" but somehow the show timing wasnt favourable and we decided to catch it some other day. In the end, we ended up shopping in Marina --> Suntec --> Funan and Joe bought the Ipod Nano which he had all along wanted. It was really slick and nice. No buys for me as there wasnt anything that caught my eye (though there was a Levis sale). Well.. shouldnt spent so much either!

Nite time was spent celebrating Jack'd Bday. Hmm... and i forgot that the gathering was actually a celebrating and didnt bring any gifts with me. OMG.. feel so "peiseh" to be there empty handed while the rest brought something along. Hmm.. Made me looked so bad. But the party was enjoyable anyway.

@@SUN@@
Awaken by the roaring thunder at 5am this morning even though i slept at 2am~! Damn... Sacriface that i ahve to pay for being a light sleeper. But forced myself to sleep anyway. Still raining by the time i eventually woke for blading and decided to call the rest to see if we are still going. - ended up in Bishan instead for breakfast with them at Cafe Cartel. Haha...

Tried watching "The Longest Yard - Adam sandler" but to no avail again as the time was again unfavourable. sigh.. guess its fated. Bought some Tv cables to wired up my room but found that i bough the wrong one instead! kaoz... wata waste of my time and money.

Spend the day mostly at home trying to fixed up the wireless connection at home, but still having some problems. Sigh... just not talented in computer gudgets. haha.. shall wait for my genius brother to return and fix it up for me. haha... that what brothers are meant for--- be bullied!

Liverpool Vs Manu .. exciting game but ended goalless..

2005-09-18T01:29:00.000+08:00

2005-09-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

PAIN/HURT/SORROW

2005-09-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

Damn..

Got "Foxtrot" today by boss and missed my ceremony. Big boss wasnt happy that i missed it. Too many things built up suddenly and i was stressed out. Mind went a complete blank. If not for Chan.. I would have been in deep shit.

It doesnt help when my chaps doesnt know a thing about the processes and not keen to read up to find out about all the different procedures and rules in place.

Issit my fault that i havent taught them well?
I cant possibly be explaining all the time where to find the data and why issit like that... Its just too much for me to handle

Scold them? Blame them? and ME the badie again... I had enough...

Sorry.. in a bad mood today. Just couldnt accept the cold fact in reality that ppl are just working to earn a living? and when things are not re-iterated, they are swept under the carpet hoping that no one will uncover it again.

Are there still PRIDE in their work? Are they conscious of what they draw at the end of the month? Any nightmares when they sleep?....Guess there isnt any..

Probably its just ME.. still living in my own ideal world vis-a-vis the perfectionist in ME. Unable to co-exist in this reality.

Maybe im fated to be unhappy...

A bug's world of pain

Bug's day....

2005-09-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

Covered almost all the expressways today! kaoz.. must have travelled too much.

On my way to work: KJE ----> BKE [2 expressways]

- Work was okie. Quite a fair amount of work starting to pile up again, which is usual as the 4 of us likes to leave the work for each other. Starting to get used to the fact that im the usual one clearing the shit. Who else but ME!

Nothing significant happened at work.. Another normal day. crop in my dark dark room, doing my work

After work to Suntec: CTE [1 expressway]

Watch "The Brothers Grimm" Matt Damon impressed me in this show. Not the usual funny character that he usually plays like "Stuck on you"
His hairstyle and dressing in this show was impresive too. *Thumbs up*

~~Y you should watch:~~
This movie has all the elements of fairytale, mystery, suspense and romance all packed into one.

Famous liner in Snow white: "Mirror, Mirror on the Wall. Who's the Fairest of Them All"

After that, went to Tampinese: ECP [1 expressway]
Head for home: PIE ----> BKE -----> KJE [3 expressways]
Should have used the TPE instead, as i think the distance would have been nearer!
Almost fell asleep while driving home. Kinna tired after a long day. Yawning...

Think the expressways not covered are SLE, AYE and TPE.

A bug's day...

At the Driving range

2005-09-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

Back from golf lesson and feeling tired and numbness in the finger. Its a symptom that i always get after that..

My back didnt hurt as much as before, which is obviously a good sign. However, Mr Chen wasnt really happy with my technique and shock his head on many ocassions till he gave up to coach benjamin and calvin. Sigh... ""HE HAS GIVEN UP HOPE ON ME!""

1) Your down swing needs improvement
2) Maintain your CG
3) Dont exert too much and force the shot.. you need to get the basic rite first
4) Turn ur wrist when you hit
5) Dont create extra motions that arent suppose to be there
6) Body will move after you hit the ball.. NOT together.
7) Dont bend your left knee
8) Extend your arm fully
9) Finish your shot properly

Sigh... So many things to improve upon. Llooks like im really not talented in this, but ben says that my shots are really good, though i love his shot better.

Haha.. human are always envious of each other rite!

Golfing Bug...

~Pat on my back~

2005-09-14T01:07:00.000+08:00

Day 1 of leave:

1) Going to re-shuffle my room.
Im proud to say, i did a complete makeover for my room. Took a total of 6 hrs to get it done. *Phew* love my new style and my new furniture

2) IKEA shopping to get a new book shelfstand and probably a chair.

Ikea wasnt that crowded, which was good since i can take my time to consider the different bookshelves that are available. Settle for "untreated wood" since it match my other furniture. I must say, im a Ikea freak and i would probably do up my own home next time in Ikea style.

Bought a shelf, vase and some flowers to deco my room, painting and a wine holder. hehe.... had a hard time trying to fit all the stuff into the car!

3) Arrange all my photos nicely..
4) Go for a jog
5) read my books.

Item 3-5 are all not done. sigh... hardly had enough time to rest after the exhaustive deco. But i went bowling.

Bowl well today. horray.. finally gpt some decent games and consistency. ** Singapore Open** is coming!! so i gotta be in top condition for it.

Any half more day of break before i gotta return to office.. Time really flies when im on vacation. Sigh..

Anz e Bug

Smart and Charming

2005-09-12T20:41:00.000+08:00

I came across this article while reading a female magazine (dont ask me why im reading that!) in office today. Kinna interesting and wanna share with you ppl. ** Btw, the Mag belongs to one of the 3 females in my office**

Its about a man in his fourties. Highly successful and charming and with a very stable income, but this guy is still SINGLE. So wat went wrong.

His reasons were.. (Unsure if its true)

#NO woman could take the place of Mother..... I think this is a lie
# 100 % focus on career, spritual fulfilment, social work and being fabulously gay.... I kinna agree on this point
#Still await for scientist to perfect the robo-lovedoll.. this i tot was damn funny.

The interesting thing about this atricle is that its kinna proven that no one pities SINGLE man when any idiot can get themselves hitch (which is pretty true when you see how some nerds on the streets have gf that i can only imagine of). Are single man really pitiful was something i started to ask myself... Hmmm....

Comments from woman includes::

# read more news regarding vietnamese mailorder brides... (My colleague said that to me too!!)
# You are not getting younger or taller... (Mum havent said that to me)
# Why so fussy? You are not brad pitt... Hmm..even brad pitt is now SINGLE.. haha

I believe, the point is not about being fussy. I would say that its experience that has taught me to open my eyes wider to see the world clearer. Warning signs are more vivid as what was mentioned in this article, "a new organ for smelling troubles"

For me the search for her continues, and hopefully i can write something about finding true love soon. haha...

** Corr mei mei... Good luck in our search! If by the time, we are still fruitless.. then you can always have me! haha**

A bug's life..

A long awaited break

2005-09-12T20:22:00.000+08:00

Im on leave for the next 1.5 days.. Yippie... Wanted to make it 2 actually, but had to attend a meeting this Wed afternoon. Damn... Spoilt my plans., but at least better than nothing.

Things to do while im on vacation

1) Going to re-shuffle my room. Guess the setup is too untidy and i will need to readjust all the furniture to make things more assessible.

2) IKEA shopping to get a new book shelfstand and probably a chair.

3) Arrange all my photos nicely..

4) Go for a jog

5) read my books.

Shall make full use of this vacation. Time and tide waits for no man..

Sept 11

2005-09-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

This day, on the 4th anniversary of the attack...Let us reflect on that incident and never to take homeland security for granted. All of us have a part to play.

We should continue to stay vigilant to prevent adversary attacks.

Total Defence.. We can do it. =p

Tired once more....

2005-09-08T19:37:00.000+08:00

Drove to work using an unfamiliar route and evidently got myself all lost in cck. (Stupid rite!)haha.. First time that i ever went to the remote part of Sungei Kudat and getting myself all mixed up in this industrial estate.

Ultimately... Im 5 mins late for work... well.. " talk about being smart"

The day went by quickly with boss not around today (AGAIN!). Think he is in the "bo chap" mode since he's leaving soon and poor me gotta slog hard for the job meant for 2 of us. His arrows seems to be getting further by the day and poor Bug having to plug them out one by one. How i wish i can put on my shiny bullet proof armour (as wat corr says), but it seems that it just pierces through me even though im well camouflaged.

Think i need a long break. From the environment, people and the work. Its draining me and im feeling it. Im no longer as happy as i used to be, though im still loving what im doing. The Man, Machine, Medium in office is slowing driving me crazy. How many times do i still have to be the *B* in order for things to be done. Im loosing frenz in office.

Luckily, the weekend is approaching. My inner Batt is charging ever so slowly and drying too fast on weekdays. haha.. How can i get myself all fired up again? *A new job (improbable for the next 2.5 yrs), A new working environment (not likely) , stop being perfectionist (possible), or a new found paradigm (possible)

Many of us will probably choose the easy way out and move along the path of least resistance(rightfully so), but at this stage of Bug's life, i thought that this would probably be unwise for me to do so. (Or maybe Bug's always been an attention seeker and slowing down reflects on a failure). I dont wanna give up!

With problems and dilemma like that, how can i continue to motivate myself to soar higher up in my career. Maybe to some, im probably pouting nonsense. haha...

A bug's life

Pressies.... for 26

2005-09-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

This year hatch day was quite different from previous years in that i received more pressies.. haha... the list is as such now.. hopefully more will come cos i definitely wouldnt mind belated gifts..

Not in particular order:
1) My lappie and Timberland shoe - from myself! (too poor to get a new car this time round) - simply in love with the new shoe
2) Wallet from the guys.. tks
3) blanket gift from my sis. horray .. yet to decide what i want!
4) A nice bday card from the guys and gers in office
5) Well wishes from limyi in Italy
6) A treat from Benjamin - tks
7) Awaiting for my belated gift from XY! haha... u know what to do ger!
8) The postponed lunch date with Joe in Wasabi Bistro

That shld be all.. quite fruitful this year. haha..

My wishes as i turn 26 includes:
1) World peace.... (haha.. bullshit rite!)..
2) To be more self assured and confident in myself.. My boss says i lacked confidence in my last presentation.. sigh.. and i tot i did well.. damn..
3) Sort out my ever messy room
4) Save more $money$ in my bank! ... sigh.. depleting
5) Get my house before i turn 27.. **dreaming**...
6) Do well in my work and hopefully get promoted. =)
7) Good bonus for the year
8) & lastly.. hope Ms Right appears! haha....

A bug's life....

2005-09-05T14:24:00.000+08:00

A card from my fellow colleagues. Really nice of them and "touched" when i saw this on my table today! But this card came with a price... Lunch was paid by me!

POLO club

2005-09-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

I went to the Turf club to watch horses racing with Jeff and Eric yesterday, after Jessie kindly donated her mum's precious owner's lounge tickets.

Wow... the place is really cool and well decorated. Jessie's mum was kind enough to even book seats for us and we had a good overview of the race course. Kinna "suaku" as this was my first time into the turf club. but i would say, this isnt just a place for horse betting. There is a nice cafeteria (though the stuff are ex) serving food as well as nicely dressed sales executives sitting at the betting counter ready for you to make your placement.

Know nuts abt horse betting! But Jess's dad was keenly showing us how it is done and was eagerly showing us his top picks for each race.

It was really nice to see how the race are being conducted and how the gamblers analyse the weight, length and trainer of each individual horses.. in short.. too chim for me...

Anyway, had a nice time over in turf club, though i think i will never understand the race!

Choices.... A, B or C

2005-09-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

Recently i came across an article on choices in life and how fate has been toying with the choices we made in life. Pretty interesting and wanna share how i, presently in a dilemma, is thinking of the choices i have on the table.

Probably shant talk abt it since its pretty sensitive and might hurt someone along the process if names were mentioned. Also dont wanna end up on the wrong side of the straits times too! So came up with an analogy to express the situation that im onto.

3 paths presents before me at a cross road that im in.

0000000000001/A /
0000000_____ / 0/_____
0000000_ME _ 00______ B
000000000000\ 0\C

Each path represents an option. I came from path A to where i am now. But that was a few year back when i walked that path. However, the entrance to path A states "Do not enter"..

I love walking path A as the scene along this path is beautiful and smooth. No uphill or slopes that makes the walking difficult. But it is now closed! Sigh... Y Y Y??? Should i ignore the " do not enter sign and walk this path again? Knowing that things may have probably changed this time round and road may not be as smooth sailing as before. Landscape may have changed too and no longer scenic. I might also return to where i will be now if i try walking his path again. Is this road still walkable?

Path B seems hilly and undulating. Looks like there will be plenty of hardship if i intend to walk this path. I was told by some that there were plenty of wild animals along this road which could lead me to danger. Shld i still give it a try even tough this path seems unpredictable? Will the pot of gold be at the end of this road if i persist, knowing that i might be harmed? The initial tot i have is one that isnt favourable, but could things change if i start to walk? hmmm....

Path C seems to be a long long walk without any idea where it will lead me to. There could be splits roads in this where it will just lead me round and round. No one knew what path C leads to and walking along this road will offer me with new experiences and new adventures. But do i have the time to explore these options and opportunities?

The day when I took the public transport again

2005-08-31T19:35:00.000+08:00

Hey... the feeling is really nice to be taking the public transport again. Hmm... recounting, its been 6 mths since i last board the MRT. haha... Not that Mitsu has broken down, but i shant explain why i actually had to take the train (Only the 2 privileged ones will know!. haha) ... but is was indeed fun.

Patiently waited for the west bound train to head to city hall.

Got a shock, when the train broadcasted abt spotting unfamiliar parcels and caught me by surprise as this message was unheard off 6 mths ago. haha... so it was an eventful train ride

ANYWAY... i must BLOG... its bday for MITSU today... no gift for him/her though...
shall consider giving him/her an off day and take the public transport again!! hhaa...

2005-08-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

Environment: Desktop is still down... Certain components of the Motherboard have failed! sigh... typing from my lappie

Condition: tiring. Back from usual tuesday bowling. Feel good though didnt bowl well. Received the invitation to join "Singapore Open" and seriously thinking if i shld start bowling competitively again. Wonder if i have the time to train.

Doings: On a 3 day course in Spring Spore on "coaching for performance and development"

**Day 2 of my course **
The day started with Clara explaining on the key pointers that a Coach has to take note of. A little exercise follow suit whereby we were told to write something on each member in your group. I was in a writing mood today and wrote short notes to all my team members. Many compliments were given to them and was glad to see the smiles across their face. hmm... I felt happy too.

Of particular interest today was an activity that describes what type of coach you are. Hmm.. guess wat:

I am supposed to be a people's coach from that mini exercise. That means that i have others in mind more than the objectives that im supposed to achieve. hmmm.. quite reflective of who i actually am! **others before self**

@@Traits that these type of ppl have@@
- We make frenz easily though they might not be true frenz (Kinna sad)
- Easily conned (very sad)
- Indecisive (Ultra sad)

Sigh.. looking at all these traits.. it better off that i dont have that many frenz to prevent being conned!! haha....

Wrap-up: Shall do some story book reading later.... One more day before work starts again...

Task Completion

2005-08-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

Completed what i intended to do today, but with great price... ** tiring**

Blade with Eric and Eilene as WX and Jem were as usual.. the kite flyers!
covered from mac-NSRCC-bedok and then fort rd and then back to mac... completely exhausted after tat...

Shopping next and bought a book. hehe... Titled "Flowers foor Algernon" This added to my long list of unread books.. hehe...Told joe that the only way i would read is when i have too many un read books on hand... the list is now as follows

1) half way through "blink"
2) chapter 8 of 40 of "the purpose driven life"
3) chapter 2 of the "rules of work"
4) page 4 of "the curious incident of the dog in the night time"

haha... judging from my reading speed.. it will probably take another yr before i reach "Flowers foor Algernon".. haha....

Next was bowling.. haha... was already tired by the time i reach the alley at 9pm. haha... but promised my sis to bowl with her as she had her company inter dept bowling coming up. haa... so no choice have to guide her along. Though i wasnt bowling that good (as usual), but bowling with the family is really fun. Maybe bcos we hardly have family outings and times like this do make it significant for me.. haha...

Well... achieved wat i wanted to do today.

Another weekend draws to a close and a new week unfolds... Mitsu and my Bday coming soon.. haha....

Restless day..

2005-08-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

Clicking away on my new bought lappie. Hmm.. not a real need when i bought it, but more like a want. Helps me in my daily work and allows me to type and work on the bed too. haha.. However most of my documents and stuffs are in the desktop and will probably take awhile to get things being transferred over!

Sad to say... My desktop is jealous of this new buy and decided to go on strike! Damn.. think the graphics card spoilt! So probably gonna get it replaced tomorrow.. (more expenses!)

Did nothing much today, except played golf with ben and calvin. Been out of action for weeks as a result of my injured back. Luckily can still hit the ball. haha.. not too bad lei..

At the range today, there was this ger (dunno wat's her name), who was also practicing behind me. Nice and good looking, and also a student of my coach. haha.. calvin say she was good looking, which i tot so too. But I was concentrating more of getting my shots right than bade watching. Maybe its fated that we talked, when she almost hit the ball onto my head! kaoz.. Dunno if u called that lady luck! hmmm... but calvin told me that the ball just flew by me and i could have been in hospital now if the ball had struck me..

She was very apologetic over the incident and thats how we starting talking. haha.. nice voice and a very sweet/good looking ger! hmmm... well. hope to see her again! haha.... *devil me*

Anyway, had dinner with ben and Xinyi at Angpang Yong Tau Hu.. Delicious! haha,, havent had that for ages and it still taste as good as ever! Received the bomb shell that they have decided to get married! wow.. thats nice.. my fav couple is finally tying the knot...

Tomorrow is sports day! balding/bowling and shopping...

Fitness in question....

2005-08-25T18:40:00.000+08:00

OMG... Im getting old... and slow

Complete my 2.4km run today is record slowest time in my life. *DIE DIE DIE* looks like im going to trash this record yearly..

Need to really train up for it.. im getting slower by the year. Is my body getting weaker or am i just plain lazy!

Relaxing weekend.... More hoildays to come..

2005-08-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

Sharing some scenic photos from my latest weekend getaway... Dunno y i feel so scenic too, as i went all around taking photos of flora and the sea. Really relaxing to sitting by the beach and hearing the waves while reading a book. must do that often... (maybe its a old syndrome sign too! haha....)

A Mangrove swamp while on the way to the resort. A view that I hardly see in the city of S'pore.

A view while Bug sits at the jetty reading and njoying the sea breeze..

Clean and refreshing water.. Feel like dipping myself in it.. But i didnt. =)

Relaxing garden....

Inspired once again

2005-08-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

Been slogging off work with countless meetings that leads to no man's land and tonnes of piles up from NDP. Well.. that's life isnt it.

Looking at Batik's blog and realised that she had indeed shopped alot recently and recounted that i havent shop recently but still ended up with huge expenditures monthly... hmm.. something must be wrong somewhere... *scratch head*

Anyway... Bug's just back from a weekend getaway relaxing by the beach and watching the world go by me. Feel really shiok to be blown by the breeze while im reading my book and feel really inspired by the sea. The sound of the crashing waves on the big rocks make me really feel small in the world we are living in.

Feeling rejuvenated after a good weekend getaway and felt energised once again. My colleagues reminded me that i shld take things slowly and not "promised" too much for it may be my downfall if i start a "ra ra" show again. For once - I fully agree on this and shld start pacing myself this time round so that work will always be a constant pleasure for me... Cant always be feeling drained....

Once again... the antz has start to be hardworking again... and smarter this time... I have experienced much in the past yr and have matured much. Hopefully i can be as happy as many.. Shall share a quote by Joe:

" you will only be happy when you are satisfied with what you already have"

Big tots in this tiny Antz brain....

2005-08-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

Been days since i last Blogged. Looks like the laziness is slowly but surely sinking into me.

NDP 2005 and the carnival @ marina is officially over! Hooray... A big load off my chest thats its over. But that also means that its time to start clearing the Big pile of back logs that i had used NDP as an excuse for.

Im partly lazy bcos im been busy reflecting on my life and spending most of my time thinking of wat i actually want out of my life.

"The Purpose driven life" has somewhat broadens my outlook to the world im temporary living in. This led to more indepth thinking to how i want my life to be and reflect upon the things that are ard me. Are they truly sincere? Are they here for a purpose and how i shld deal with colleagues/frenz and ppl ard me whenever things have gone wrong. Everyone wants to be appreciated and not taken for granted, but somehow someone has to be the baddie in order for things to get moving... Bug's dont like to be baddie... but i have learned to be one when the need arises..

Starting to appreciate the wonderful frenz i have ard me. Tks Joe and linc for the advices you guys gave. Its times like this that i truly appreciate the frenz I have and im sorry that i havent been listening to you guys cos im probably too "soaked" into the shit to realise that shit is ard me and an outsider point of view is what is required to pull myself out of it. =p

Sounds like im in deep tots.. haha.. but that just me... Being the Paranoid and ever turf gurding me. Taking small cautions steps in watever i do so that its always done rite. "slow and steady wins the race!"

Leaving you ppl with the quote of the week:

"Nothing worthwhile is ever achieved without that collective spark of enthusiasm"

A bug's life....

My Nation's Bday

2005-08-09T07:44:00.000+08:00

Off to work to launch these birds!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

Toying with my new Device

2005-08-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

Most of you would hve known that Im completely new to BT technology.
Well, can say that the nature of work doesnt enable me to be a "freak" to these new devices and that im always half a step slower than others in learning new technology. Sigh...

Well.. Better be late than never!! And im proud to say that i have uploaded some photos from my phone onto my Blog!! Horray...

@@@@Dinner At OLIVE TREE@@@@@

Wx and John in serious business talks.. WX probably selling some lifts to John's company...

Jack e bean stalk and and HW. Both are branded as LATE COMERS!!

May the spirit lives on and on.....

The purpose driven life #1

2005-08-08T18:29:00.000+08:00

Havent got the time recently to sit at my compie and typing away like this as NDP preparation gets more intensive and complex. I was also bogged down by numerous events and work that makes blogging kina a chore when u return home from work daily. sigh... Sad to say, but thats the real life that we face in Spore... highly demanding where we rush to meet deadlines.. Furthermore, boss been away frequently which means that i have to cover his job while he enjoys himself..

Let me just do a quick recap over the significant events that flashes passed my life the previous week.

- Played golf with Ben and Eric. Slowly, showing signs of improvements as the shots are slightly more consistent and flying further away. However, the troublesome back hurts soon after that and i may have to take a break and let it recover fully before i start playing again.

- The long overdue gathering. Well.. most of us turned up! Which was nice as we havent seen each other for quite awhile since the Chinese New Yr dinner. As usual, Jack was late! sigh.. haha.. Dinner at Olive Tree wasnt fantastic, but the atmosphere more than compensate for the food. hehe... But wat matters most is the camaraderie that the group share rite! May this friendship continue to blossom as we grow older. It was really nice to see ppl taking precious time off their gf to meet up. (Im sure all of us will continue to do that rite!)

- Watched CATCF with Joe... Boring!!! (dont get me wrong. Not that Joe is boring, although he sometimes do! haha.. but the show was!) A few events triggered this boredom! Firstly, we entered the cinema 10 mins late as i had to eat lunch and Joe had to do his shopping... This lead to us unable to find our seat in the cinema as the seats were not litted! OMG... Will never go to that cinema again.. Secondly, due to the lightings, i couldnt see the burger that i was easting and the mustard on it spilled onto my clothes. **TMD**... Luckily i managed to wash it off after the show.. Thirdly, the show wasnt that good.. Maybe i expected more after the hype it got. Well.. 2/5 stars if i were to rate it... certainly not my kind of show...

So that kinna sumed up my week.. Watch out for part 2 later..... Watch TV now... National Day in 5 Hrs time...

Anz - The Bug's finding a niche in life

2005-08-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

Take a break when necessary and only work when u are seen....

~Weekend~

2005-07-31T22:16:00.000+08:00

Just like a flash and sun is almost gone...

Sigh.. another 5 days to slog again after the weekend and as expected, didnt achieve much during sat and sun as im still down with flu and now im starting to show signs of dry cough. Sigh... Big time sickness coming.

Sent Mum to the market on sat (Wow.. filial rite!) and accompanied her to get the groceries, had lunch with her before i proceed back to office for NDP. Well, work as usual, but the most rewarding part of the work was the incentive to be part of the flypast over padang. As i mentioned, it was incredible to watch it over the air and an experience that i would never have gotten if i wasnt part of the SAF. Simply amazing!

Well, it party time for the colleagues rite after that at balaclave as we celebrate Doris last few moments as a civil servant. Well, she all ready to be a "tai tai" It was the usual gang meetup over drinks and chit chat and i do enjoy these sessions to gossip over the latest news in office as well.

Sunday came and i felt damn nuah in the morning. Things i did:

1) Had chicken rice in Clementi with Joe.
2) Went to golf course for practise
3) Had Dinner (jap food.. Hippie) with Ben and Xinyi
4) Bought my clubs bag.. Ex sia...
5) Didnt blade/ do my work/ prepare my files. DIE DIE DIE>>.......

Joe says i lack motivation, which i think so too... need to re-light the fire in me again. Else im just going down hill.... haha...

A bug's weekend!

NDP Preview

2005-07-31T12:01:00.000+08:00

Watched NDP from the air for the very first time in Bug's life. - Simply Sensational!

Maybe that is a previlege in my line of work, which allows me to travel to different place and taking part in these national activities. I was overwhelmed by the crowd alone esplanade, westin, fullerton and of cos Padang.

A sea of reds greated us as we overflown Padang and the ppl in the stands looks like small little red ants from where i was and kinna looks like my fellow community gathering ard looking for food. Haha....

It was an experience that i can never forget.

Kudos to the man and woman behind NDP 2005 for making them possible..

"sacred vows"

2005-07-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

Marty wakes up at home with a huge hangover.
He forces himself to open his eyes, and the firstthing he sees is a couple of aspirins and a glass of water on the side table.
He sits down and sees his clothing in front of him,all clean and pressed.
Marty looks around the roomand sees that it is in a perfect order,spotless, clean.
So's the rest of the house. He takes the aspirins andnotices a note on the table

"Honey, breakfast is on the stove, I left early togo shopping. Love you."

So he goes to the kitchen and sure enough there isa hot breakfast and the morning newspaper.
His son isalso at the table, eating.Marty asks,

"Son, what happened last night?"
His son says,

"Well, you came home after 3A.M.,drunk and delirious. Broke some furniture, puked inthe hallway, and gave yourself a black eye whenyou stumbled into the door."

Confused, Marty asks,

"So, why is everything in order and so clean, and breakfast is on the table waiting for me?"

His son replies, "Oh that! Mom dragged you to the bedroom,and when she tried to take your pants off, you said,"Lady, leave me alone, I'm married!"

** Wonder will anyone actually say that when he/she is drunk. First time that i actually came across this. Something out of the norm and really romantic/nice to hear.

I would have made breakfast for my wife if she says that to me.. tsk tsk...**

A Bug's story

Time to get things right

2005-07-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

Down with flu, throat getting sore, back still hurts and Mitsu is disfigured!

What can go more wrong...

Y does bad things always comes in abundance and sweet moments never lasting. Sigh..

Been talking to a fren alot recently on issues in the Bible as he tries to seek God. Feel very happy for him that he's starting to be inquisitive abt the Christian life and started to look at myself how lousy i have been a Christ brother to him. Its seems that my fate too has been backsliding and time now to really reflect and get close to Him. Perhaps all these that are happening to my life now are tests of God? Obstacles and challenges at this stage of my life to make me appreciate the world better. Perhaps i can understand humans better through these series of events that has been pondering in my life. And once i seek God for answer, i will get closer to him and show me the way.

Anyway, finally completed reading "Tues with Morrie". Took me about a month to finished this small book. sigh... Been a really slow reader and aslo bog down by my numerous activities that i have been engaging in. Told joe that this book isnt as spectacular as i tot it could be, as this is primarily a biography of Morrie in the last stage of his life. However, the style of which this is written is amazing and strongly encourage to those who havent read it yet. simple yet keep you going.

So im starting on my next book "the purpose driven life" which talks about what on earth am i here for and i think its a good time to be reading this to get some source of motivation and encouragement in times like this!

~A sick Bug~

TENSION relief

2005-07-21T17:48:00.000+08:00

Got this passage from a good fren of mine...
Either he is too free and he is damn good in English..

The moment you are in TENSION
You will lose your ATTENTION
Then you are in total CONFUSION
and you'll feel IRRITATION
This may spoil your personal RELATIONS
Untimately, you won't get COOPERATION
And get things into COMPLICATION
Then you may raise CAUTION

And you have to take MEDICATION
Why not try understanding the SITUATION
And try to think about the SOLUTION
Many problems will be solved by DISCUSSION
Which will work out better in your PROFESSION

Don't think this is a free SUGGESTION
It is only for your PREVENTION
If you understand my INTENTION
You'll never come again into TENSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And for me to BLOG this, Im definately too free....

A bug's Life....

Pay Peanuts, Get Monkeys

2005-07-21T17:42:00.000+08:00

No wonder, we are all acting like monkeys theses days!

~PAIN in the back~

2005-07-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

Feeling weak..

Back injury hasnt heal as fast as i would have love too. With the amount of sport activities lining up. really wonder if im wasting my time doing all these training, when i feel the pain all the time.

Golf on monday wasnt that satisfying when each swing comes with a pain till i have to call time-out to rest. Sigh... really feel that the body isnt as hardy as before anymore...

Bowling today was bad.... cant even hit a decent average. I tot my shots were good, but as usual, they key word here is "I TOT".. (The usual army term of u think... i tot... who confirm). Cant get the pins to fall, miss simple spares = D.E.A.D

Shall not use my injured back as a lame excuse for my lousy performance. Dont tink it affects me to such an extent. Guess the more expectations i have, the lousier i feel usually.

Moral of the story:

"Expect less" ?? ...... neh............... "but continue to work hard to perform better next time rite"?

On a more serious note,
work is getting tougher by the day. Still tied down by lots of incomplete work and meetings to attend. Sometimes i feel that these meetings disrupt my work cos usually, nothing beneficially for me comes out of it. Im basically there just to show my presence and to take the shit if it comes along.

Guess i need another long break soon before my leave gets frozen from Oct - June next year. kinna sad rite... but that is the price u have to pay when i put on the uniform!

Time to get away...

Wake up to a brand new SATURDAY

2005-07-16T10:15:00.000+08:00

Woke up in the nice rainy weather and feel like the world has stopped, telling me that i should just snuggle back to bed. Sigh... But just cant get back to dreamland knowing that im already woken up by the noise generated by my retired parents.

Tossing left and right just isnt going to bring me to bed and hence decided to crawl out in this nice and comfy weather.

Decided to use my brand new ORAL B VISION toothbrush that i just bought on Thursday. Haha... The old one im using is abt... 1 yr old?? cant really remember when i last changed it. But the brush is slowly fraying and not rubbing on my teeth as hard as i would have love. hehe... *Im quite picky hor* haha...

This new toothbrush is amazing...Toothbrush technology has evolved over the years till i cant understand how different brushes work nowadays! There are so many to choose from. From different hardness to different angles in which the brush is inclined. Kaoz... Giving me such a hard time to decide which is suitable for me. hehe...

Still remember the days that toothbrush comes only in one standard format with one standard flat brush, where the only choice is colour and length. haha... Since then my mum has been the one buying brushes until recently, where i have officially taken over my own toiletries!

Well, i must say this brush works wonder! hmm.. or it could be the feeling from all new brushes. Feel very clean and fresh.... and of cos SATISIFIED!! haha..

Vulnerability

2005-07-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

Havent been blogging as much as i would have love too as im simple drained this week. Too many events happening together at the same time that im hardly able to keep up with it. Events overtaking each other that, things just flashed past you without you even realising.

Feeling down... Not that there was tonnes of work. but some drastic events at work, which made you realised how vulnerable life is. One moment, you can be happily smiling, talking and greeting each other goodbyes and next, that very person who you love to chat with is no longer around. Such changes is just part and parcel of this ever revolving earth, but something we never thought of this when we were young. But somehow, it just struck me

Will we never get the chance to say "I love you" to the person whom you like? By procrastinating and holding back, are you doing injustice to yourself knowing that you might not be able to say it tomorrow again? Are we treasuring our loved ones enough to tell them that you appreciate their cooking and companionship cos you might not get to do it again. "Tues with Morrie" taught me to be ready to accept death cos by accepting it, you are eventually preparing for it. You start realising when your deadlines are and start setting your aims and goals so that you will live a life of no regrets when the time comes to say your final farewell.

So, here i am, witnessing the dramatic in life yesterday. Sadness, Anger and Love filled the meeting room, and i just wanna say thank you to all my frenz out there for their constant hand in pulling me when the times are bad and strolling along the beach with me when i need the extra ears and shoulders.

To the one i love: I just wanna say "I LOVE you" no matter where you are!

**pink or white are just choices in life, but its the love in the heart that matters**

A Bug's reflection of life

The Weather is just nice to N.U.A.H

2005-07-10T18:52:00.000+08:00

From golf training session --> blading --> clubbing at Mdm Wong, and subsequently to Vino Vino and -->the later supper on sat nite, and --> more blading on Sun, my body is showing symptoms that it requires a time out! haha...

Firstly, Thumb hurts after Bug tried acting smart and probably hold the club wrongly and with the continuous rubbing, Bug's fragile fat thumb was torn rite at the center. Damn.. really hurt now.

Secondly, my waist and wrist are feeling the muscles ache from the continuous twisting and turning of both muscle group. Sigh... looks like, i haven done enough warm up!

So it was a warm welcome for the nice weather this afternoon, when all you can do is snuggle into bed and nuah. Didnt even need to read a book to fall asleep. haha... So *konk* i went and zoom into neverland for 3 hours. No dreams this time tough cos maybe i dreamt too much the last nite. (Not a frequent dreamer too)

Nice and good rest.. feel recharged for the week. Tonnes of work awaiting for me to clear after Boss re-iterate the need to finish off the reno plans as soon as possible.. Guess i have to work on it fast to get the draft and master plan out. Sigh... so many work, but only 2 hands and 1 brain...

A bug's life...